and its felt like lead, too think to let anything else in, it is too heavy to stand. i wont push out, please god this tears me apart on the inside, you quit and you suck and you are still the same..as far as i can see i wish to breath, i cant take this change, i would rather stay here with my hands gripping my throat. what now? you find yourself on the outside? what about them? what about her? what about all of your responsibility? i find this in blood, for some...easy to walk away, i find that i can never break, this hurts, it tears me apart on the inside ive quit, we are done, it seems that now youre the absentee i still feel so much for you